Reconcile This!

“that God was reconciling the world to himself in Christ, not counting men's sins against them. And he has committed to us the message of reconciliation. We are therefore Christ's ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ's behalf: Be reconciled to God.” (2 Corinthians 5:19-20)

You know, reconciliation with God is not where I have the problem... it is being reconciled with one another that gets me. I just spent a mere 1hr and a half (short, but it felt VERY long) in a meeting where attitudes were flying (including my own) and people were behaving abhorrently (including me). Now I sit here, STEAMING MAD, trying to have God's word speak to me into my life and the theme is "reconciliation??!!" Agh! The audacity of God, sometimes! (Was that blasphemous?!)

The irony is the group I was with is pretty much my only "specifically non-Christian" group (well half are, half aren't). The reason this is ironic is because I have always said that "evangelism" is SO not my thing. It really isn't. It's not that I don't love people (well, I am capable of it when the Spirit intervenes), or that I don't believe in the concept of evangelism - I am totally psyched that there are folks out there with that gift. So I am in this group, in part, to get myself "out there," so to speak. And right now, all I want to do is quit. Which sure doesn't fit in with the definition of being reconciled. Get a load of this:

To Reconcile:

1.	to win over to friendliness; cause to become amicable: to reconcile hostile persons.

2.	to compose or settle (a quarrel, dispute, etc.).

3.	to bring into agreement or harmony; make compatible or consistent: to reconcile differing statements; to reconcile accounts.

Seriously, if I weren't so flipping annoyed right now, I would find this irony hilarious.

OK, OK, OK...So... How is it I am to be Christ's ambassador in this situation?? [sigh] Great. Just great. I get to humble myself and apologize first, and perhaps be the only one who does so and be okay with that. Grrr....

It is late. I am exhausted and finally coming down from the adrenalin high this meeting got me into. I need to pray this through. The Serentity Prayer sure seems like a good place to start:

God, Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the strength to change the thinks I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

Amen.

I know I am totally copping out on an indepth entry today, just getting this down was a challenge today. Thank God for a new day tomorrow.